Turtles All the Way Down

Sixteen-year-old Aza never intended to pursue the mystery of fugitive billionaire Russell Pickett, but there’s a hundred-thousand-dollar reward at stake and her Best and Most Fearless Friend, Daisy, is eager to investigate. So together they navigate the short distance and broad divides that separate them from Russell Pickett’s son, Davis.

Aza is trying. She is trying to be a good daughter, a good friend, a good student and maybe even a good detective, while also living within the ever-tightening spiral of her own thoughts.

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I am a huge John Green fan. I started watching Vlog Brothers, the Youtube channel he has with his brother, Hank, a little before Paper Towns came out (9 years ago. NINE YEARS AGO. Oh my god. I need to go recover from that realisation…), and at first I didn’t even realise he was a writer. Then Paper Towns blew my mind – I had the part where Radar tells Quentin that he has to stop expecting everybody in his life to behave as Quentin himself would tacked to my bedroom door throughout the rest of high school. I went to see John and Hank on book tour when they stopped in Swindon, of all places, to promote TFIOS. I have a Pizza John shirt. He is one of a very limited number of men whose opinions I have any interest in.

I’m a fan.

So it kind of figures that Turtles All the Way Down would be my kind of thing.

And oh, it was. Turtles All the Way Down is a stunning achievement. It’s a deeply introspective novel about living with a mental health problem that avoids all of the tropes and ‘fixes’ that so often plague stories on the subject. Aza struggles with OCD, which Green has himself, so that helps with the representation.

While the story did have what I have seen referred to as trademark John Green whimsy – his characters are super smart and definitely manipulate scientific fact to create metaphors about their lives (this time they are very into space) – it felt like a departure from his previous work. In Paper Towns, Looking for Alaska and TFIOS in particular the story is very much a vehicle for an idea, whereas Turtles All the Way Down is a deep exploration of Aza’s mental health, with her mental state functioning as the primary driver in the story.

While most stories about mental health incite some conversation about romanticising unhealthy behaviour – To the Bone, that Lily Collins movie about Anorexia springs to mind – there is nothing romantic about Aza’s situation – and not just because her OCD interferes with her love life. That’s not to say that the novel is hopeless, but it is engaged with the particular struggles of Aza’s life that at times make for hard reading – for example, Aza is plagued by the thought of getting an infection, and this thought that she can’t shake leads her to start drinking her hand sanitiser. She understands rationally that drinking pure alcohol is poisonous, and will seriously harm her body in the long run, but she can’t overcome the part of her brain telling her that drinking the hand sanitiser is the only way she will survive. The compassion and skill with which John Green navigates these especially difficult scenes of the novel means that as a reader you’re falling down the spiral of Aza’s anxiety with her even as you stand on the outside desperate to help pull her out.

One of the aspects of the novel that felt most important to me was the new challenges Aza faced when trying to have a romantic relationship, in particular the physical side of things. Physical relationships are really difficult for some people for a whole variety of different reasons from mental health issues to trauma to all of the nuances in between and don’t think I’ve ever read a book where I’ve seen that represented before. Sex positivity is absolutely wonderful, but it’s contributed to the taboo surrounding having any kind of sexual issues – which a lot of people have. Though Aza does not have sex in this book, she does find that her intrusive thoughts do mean that she can’t be physical with her boyfriend most of the time as making out with him makes her to anxious. Yet she and her boyfriend still have a very positive relationship in which he is understanding, kind, and never shames Aza or tries to push her into doing more than she is comfortable with. And he’s also still like, crazy into her. It’s such a positive view on a situation in which a lot of people feel a ton of shame, and I am so so happy that it exists.

Turtles All the Way Down is a difficult, painful and deeply compassionate novel that tears to shreds the romanticisation of mental health problems. In his typical style, John Green navigates Aza’s internal life in a way that never feels anything but emotionally true. It is a stunning novel about friendship, loss and surviving your own unique challenges, whether that be your OCD or your millionaire father leaving his entire fortune to a reptile.

It was totally worth the wait.

Author: Lydia Tewkesbury

27. Loves a good story.

12 thoughts on “Turtles All the Way Down”

  1. I’m so intrigued to read this! I must confess i’ve never r ad a John Green novel although I own several at home haha. Interestingly enough I still consider myself a fan because he seems really nice and I enjoy his social media presence 😂


    1. Haha I get that! I watched vlogbrothers before I ever read his books so I was in the same position. I hope you like his work when you get to it. He’s a highly stylised and really interesting writer who asks you to really engage actively with his books in a way that very much appeals to me 🙂

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  2. This review is right on time, as I finished reading this book just an hour ago ahah. It was such a gorgeous review, I couldn’t and probably won’t be able to phrase my thoughts better than you did right here. I missed John Green’s books and writing and you’re right, it was so worth the wait. I loved how this book explored mental illness, how realistic and true it rang, most of it all, how there wasn’t any happy ending or anything like a sort of cure. Just beautiful life lessons about mental illness and an insight of what it’s like. I really, really, really loved this book. That was a beautiful review ❤


  3. I’m so glad to hear that you enjoyed this one. I wasn’t planning on reading it, as I’ve only liked one John Green book to date, but I got a copy as a gift, so I’ve been looking for reviews to see how it is. And so I’m glad to see such a positive review – thank you!


    1. Thank you! I hope you like it. John Green is a very stylistic writer, so there are aspects of the novel similar to his previous work that you may not like. But that said it’s such a compelling story I don’t think any of the whimsy detracts from the message (though, as mentioned, I’m a big fan of the whimsy).

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      1. I actually just finished it last night, and I agree with most of what you said. There are definitely moments and aspects that I wasn’t a fan of, but it is definitely a compelling story. Much better than other books I’ve read from him, to my surprise.


  4. This was my first John Green book and it was everything I hoped for, except for the romance which I found somewhat weak… but such a great review Lydia! i just posted a review on my blog and gave you a pingback ❤

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